Father Lyrics

Can you remember
How you use to jab your fingers into my chest
And tell me how stupid you thought I was
And how I'd grow up to be worthless?

I was only 9 and I can recall every single time
You raised your hand to me
No matter how hard I try to forget
I can't erase it from my memory

To this day you seem to think that
You never did anything wrong
And even though I've tried to look past your ignorance
The hate was too strong

But you were to blind to see how much anger
Was growing inside of me
And everything revolved around you
Do what you say, do what you want, do as you do

As the years passed I never knew what was to come
'Cause you were never there
But the day will come when we'll cross paths
But this time I'll be there to let you know that

All I ever wanted was was for you to believe in me
And everyday I prayed for, lived the day for
Was a chance to throw it back in your face

And before you die, open your eyes and see
All the different ways that you neglected me
You may have gave me life but you never gave me hope
I don't want to be my own father

And before you die, open your eyes and see
All the different ways that you neglected me
You may have gave me life but you never gave me hope
Father

God help me raise up outta this mess
Stress and gray days and a gang full of tests
God help me, God help me

You put the fear in me and said
If I wasn't to be everything you expected
Then a son I'm not in your eyes
And would be instantly rejected

Your gifts of love were just fifths of pain
While I tried to maintain and refrain
You just laughed at me, looked down on me
You threw down on me, you made me feel worthless

Now you're dead to me
How does it feel to be?
What runs through you created me
One day I'll break free

All I ever wanted was for you to believe in me
And everyday I prayed for, lived the day for
Was a chance to throw it back in your face

And before you die, open your eyes and see
All the different ways that you neglected me
You may have gave me life but you never gave me hope
I don't want to be my own father

And before you die, open your eyes and see
All the different ways that you neglected me
You may have gave me life but you never gave me hope
Father

Why do I have to feel like I'm constantly worthless?
Every day I'm reminded of you, father

And before you die, open your eyes and see
All the different ways that you neglected me
You may have gave me life but you never gave me hope
I don't want to be my own father

And before you die, open your eyes and see
All the different ways that you neglected me
You may have gave me life but you never gave me hope
Father