Nick Kwas Christmas Party Lyrics

spend a lot of time above water.
In fact, I spend most of my time in my room.
Lately that's made me wonder
if I've given up on trying to be someone new.
Because I don't like who I see,
each morning when I look in the mirror.
In fact it's the only thing I fear,
that I'm empty inside these bones.
I'm not scared of ghosts,
I embrace them all as friends,
because one day I'll be dead,
and they will know my name.
So I've been counting down my life,
existing in hours,
to see what I have left.

If I see 25, i'll be surprised.
If I see 32, I'll take every letter I wrote to you
and bury them alive.
If I see 44, well I haven't thought that far.